attitude makeover

So I live in the Philippines for almost 4 years now. I have changed a lot since I moved here. I have met the people who I should meet during my existence and who I shouldn't have met. I have learned a lot. I survived living on my own and had undergone those stresses in my life. Before I went to the Philippines I was so scared. I think Brunei-raised people also experienced these stuff. Our story differences are merely on the details. So I was like, what am I going to do there? How am I going to survive there? From a peaceful country to this populated country? You kidding me right? And So I prayed for God's guidance. That God won't leave me.

Yea I also went through those friendship dramas in college. I don't like what I've become here. I think too much teleserye stuff. I don't own the television anymore so what I watch here are those pinoy teleseryes that I think are lame now. I'm getting to know the culture. Feels like I'm in high school, I don't know but I became emotionally unstable here. Plus yea this breaking up thing so I was really emotionally unstable. I forgot being a carefree anymore. I forgot my optimism. I let those words behind my back bring me down. I was against chimosa/chismoso then but little by little I think I'm becoming on of those people. I was one of those who didnt see the negative side of a person but now I noticed more of the negative side of the person than the positive side. I forgot to smile and now always frowning. I got hurt. My social skills sucks here. I'm so quiet and I feel so alone in this populated country.

I feel sorry for myself. But I know that its never too late for some changes. Maybe I just need a little of attitude makeover. Err. 1st Christmas and New Year alone while family are in Brunei.....can they just banned Christmas and New Year for Ria's sake? Oh right I don't own the world so I have no right to banned the holidays. BOOO.

Oh college will be over soon. Lets get this sh*t over with. For now, I have like 2-3 hours before another freakin duty starts all over again. DAAAMMMMNNN.

"Ria stop being so NAIVE."

Way back in high school I was told that I'm being NAIVE and a LOSER. I know what LOSER means and I didnt care coz its true that I'm a LOSER. I thought NAIVE and LOSER has the same meaning until someone said "RIA STOP BEING SO NAIVE". Thanks to my Samsung Corby I with this dictionary apps thingy it helped me figure out the meaning of the word NAIVE. It says:

NAIVE - IF YOU DESCRIBE SOMEONE AS NAIVE, YOU THINK THEY LACK EXPERIENCE AND SO EXPECT THINGS TO BE EASY OR PEOPLE TO BE HONEST OR KIND.

Then I laughed when I finally knew the meaning of it and went crazy. I forgot when I found out the meaning of the word but I was laughing and crying. Coz the word so describes me. Maybe I should stop being so NAIVE. Thinking that things would always be EASY wont be easy if you wont work hard for it. People will be honest and kind because we were born to fit in in this chaotic world. But people will leave you someday because they have a life to live and you have a life to live. Sometimes in life, being STRONG is the only choice to survive in this chaotic world.

Heartbreaks.

I used to blog about how that first heartbreak way back then killed me. But what just happened really killed me. So that's how it feels like. Feels like you were in a car crash and then get killed and then your body just get thrown in the trash just like that. Everything was alright, I did got in to Philippine Orthopedic Center (my dream hospital) and the idea that graduation is just around the corner. But then something happened, something that might ruin me. This heartbreak thing is just killing me. At first I was asking WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED? WHY THE HELL IS THAT HAPPENING TO ME? He's explaining me these reasons which made me asked why he didn't fought for me and just left me just like that. Its just pathetic. I don't know how many days I cried but yea I can't stop crying....until now. I guess I give 100% of my heart to him. Maybe the next time I love I won't give 100% anymore. Coz it hurts 100% now. Plus I don't want to expect that we will be together again anymore. Coz I don't think there's something about him that I want anymore. I thought there's still but when I think about it, I don't want it anymore. I don't want to think about the future anymore.

I know that people leave and hurt you for a reason. maybe there's a reason why he did. And now he's not going to be one of those reasons why I want to wake up every morning. =(

Mean Girls vs. Mean Girls 2

Well I think we all know that there was this movie Mean Girls way back in 2004 with Lindsay Lohan in it and Rachel McAdams. I think that was the movie when we love and hate the character Karen Smith played by Amanda Seyfried. Then now there's Mean Girls 2. Meaghan Jette Martin is the main character.

I actually don't get it why it's Mean Girls 2 and not Mean Girls 2:The Remake or something. Because it doesn't have any connection at all with the first one. Unlike Harry Potter 1 then there's 2 and you see that there's the connection of the story. I thought the Mean Girl will be Ragina George's little sister. It became a tween-ish movie. Also I don't think Maiara Walsh is fit at playing the B*tch one.

Mean Girls 2 was ok. But unlike the Mean Girls movie I don't think I'll watch it all over again for like a million times.

127 hours.

Its been a long time since I watch a movie on cinemas. The last movie I watched was last year which is Gulliver's Travel with my mates in The Mall cinema, Brunei. It was my first time to watch a movie in Alabang Town Center Cinema. The first movie I watched in that cinema is 127 hours. The movie is based on a true story. According to Wikipedia, it was released in the USA last year, November 4, 2010. But here in the Philippines, its this week.

This movie is about this mountain climber, Aaron Ralston played by James Franco whose hands got stuck in one of those boulders in a Canyon in Utah. He shouted for help but it was too deep for them to hear. So he was stuck there for 127 hours with only one hand, limited water and food, his gadgets, ropes, swiss knife and those stuff inside his back pack. He was dehydrated, his heart is burning, he's numb. After 127 hours, he ran out of option, so he cut his hand with this knife and survived.

That was one hell of a experience. If that happened to me, I'd rather die.

James Franco was amazing!

Twilight and the other saga.

*This won't be the post about comparing Twilight and Harry Potter because obviously, there's a big contrast between them. It'll be about the book and the movie.

So I came across this magazine about New Moon which is a Twilight Saga. I never really liked the book. Well they said the book is better than the movie but when I read the book, I'd rather watch the movie and I'd rather sleep. I'm not against it but yeah I just think that the book is too fictional for me. Those sparkly vampires, immortal/mortal love, werewolf and vampire fighting over this clumsy girl which is human. . .it doesn't interest me. Edward Cullen was so perfect that girls fell in love with him, girls who are watching twilight are those of tweens, those who aged 13-17? Girls at that stage will be like expecting guys are like that and that's when they will develop attraction to guys.

I like those romance novel but I don't know the romance in this book is too much. yeah I'm a girl who likes those scene that makes me go Awwww.....but I don't know there's too much awww in this novel. Bella is not helping on that MOVIN ON after Edward left her. but yea it does shows how TOO MUCH LOVE WILL KILL YOU.

I admire how Stephenie Meyer create her own version of vampires and warewolves. only this book consists of too much romance.

and I'd rather watch the movie than read the book. =)

1 Julai 2006

Karangan Jenis Laporan *Picture

Tajuk: Kamu telah mengikuti kursus kepimpinan pelajar pada cuti semester lepas. Selepas kembali daripada kursus tersebut, pengetua sekolah kamu telah meminta kamu menyediakan laporan tentang kursus tersebut. Tuliskan laporan itu selengkapnya.

Laporan mengikuti kursus kepimpinan pelajar Sekolah Menengah Jamalul Alam, SMJA.

Sekolah Menengah SMJA telah mengadakan 'Kursus kepimpinan pelajar pada cuti semester lepas' pada hari Sabtu, 1 Julai 2006 di dewan besar sekolah. Pada jam 8.00 pagi hingga 10.00 pagi.

Pada pukul 8.00 pagi, pengetua Sekolah Menengah SMJA mengucapkan terima kasik kepada pelajar yang mengukuti kursus kepimpinan pelajar. Selepas itu pelajar-pelajar membuat (mangadakan) persembahan. Antaranya (itu) ialah mendeklamasi sejak dan drama pendek tentang semangat seorang pelajar.

Pada pukul 9.00 pagi pelajar-pelajar dibenarkan melihat pameran yang diadakan di sekitar dewan. Pameran (Itu) telah disediakan oleh guru-guru Sekolah Menengah SMJA. Pameran itu menonjolkan keputusan seorang pelajar cemerlang pada cuti sememster lepas. Selebihnya menunjukkan kreativiti pelajar. (Yang lain itu adalah kreativiti pelajar yang dibuat oleh pelajar-pelajar.

Pada pukul 9:15 pagi pelajar-pelajar disuruhkan (ada seorang guru yang memangil pelajar-pelajar untuk) aktiviti mencabar minda mereka(pelajar). Ada yang menjawab soalan, menyelesaikan masalah dan sebagainya. Selepas itu pelajar-pelajar yang terlibat dalam kursus tersebut mangadakan jamuan kepada mereka dengan pengetua dan guru-guru lain. Pada 9:45 upacara penyampaian hadiah bagi pelajar cemerlang dalam melakukan aktiviti semasa kursus telah diadakan. Yang menyampaikan hadiah-hadiah itu ialah pengetua Sekolah Menengah SMJA.

Selepas itu ucapan pengetua telah diadakan. Pengetua berharap pelajar yang mengikut dapat mengaplikasikan perolehan daripada kursus kepimpinan pelajar dalam diri masing masing.

Laporan disediankan,

Arrianne

Setiausaha,

Kursus kepimpinan pelajar

Sekolah Menengah SMJA.

*Tingkatkan lagi usaha. Memuaskan.

15 April 2006

Karangan Bentuk Berita. *Pictures

Tajuk: Seekor ular sawa yang panjangnya kira-kira sepuluh meter ditangkap oleh Jawatankuwasa Perunding Kampung. Sebagai pemberita sebuah akhbar. Tuliskan berita mengenai penangkapan ular tersebut.

RIMBA, Selasa -- Seekor ular sawa yang panjangnya kira-kira sepuluh meter ditangkap oleh Jawatankuasa Perunding Kampung.

Seekor ular sawa yang dijumpai di kawasan rumah Awang Kudil bin Kail yang terletak di Rimba (pada hari Selasa iaitu 11 April). Awang Kudil bin Kail sedang bersiar-siar di halaman rumahnya. Dia nampak tali yang bersinar yang menyangka besar. Ia terfikir macammana (tali) itu (berada di sana). Dia pun pergi ke tempat di mana tali itu berada. Tali itu sedang bergerak dan dia dia tahu itu adalah ular.

Dia pun memanggil Jawantankuasa Perunding Kampung dan mereka berjaya menangkap seekor ular sawa itu. Ular sawa itu (melebar) berukuran kira-kira 8 inci dan kepanjangannya ialah kira-kira 10 meter. Ular sawa itu dimasukkan (diletak) disebuah kotak besar. Mereka memberi makan (memelihara) ular itu dengan ayam, itik dan sebagainya. Setiausaha Perunding Kampung menghubungi pasukan bomba yang berdekatan kerana mereka takut ular itu akan mencedera penduduk-penduduk kampung. Pasukan bomba bergegas ke tempat kejadian pada 7:30 malam.

Pasukan bomba membawa ular tersebut untuk diserahkan kepada pihak muzium. Ular itu boleh dilihat di muzium.

*Baik, teruskan usaha.

28 Februari 2006

Tajuk: Masalah ponteng sekolah dikalangan pelajar semakin serius sejak akhir-akhir ini. Pada pendapat kamu, apakah yang mendorong masalah ini terus berlaku?

Pendahuluan - Satu fenomena yang berlaku di mana-mana

isi -> -masalah keluarga (ekonomi) (contoh). -rakan sebaya (contoh)

Masalah (Pilih satu) -> 1.Rakan sebaya, 2.Masalah kelaurga, 3.suasana/persekitaran sekolah, 4.pengaruh media masa.

Masalah ponteng sekolah di kalangan(dikalanga) pelajar adalah semakin serius pada masa ini. Bukan sahaja di negeri ini tetapi di negara-negara(ada banyak negeri-negeri) lain pun mempunyai masalah ini. Masalah ponteng sekolah boleh terbahagi kepada empat bahagian iaitu rakan sebaya, masalah keluarga, suasana sekolah dan pengaruh media masa.

Dalam rakan sebaya, ponteng sekolah boleh terjadi (menjadi masalah. Itu). Kerana ada pelajar yang berkawan dengan orang yang tidak bersopan-santun. (Dan diajarnya) Kawannya akan mempegaruhi hal yang tidak baik, seperti melepak di mall dan di mana-mana sahaja.

Faktor kedua ialah faktor dalam keluarga, ponteng sekolah pun boleh terjadi akibatnya (mejadi masalah). Kerana masalah (dengan) ibu-bapa pelajar itu. Kalau ibu-bapa pelajar itu selalu marah dengan anaknya, pelajar itu menjadi emosi dan pelajar itu selalu mahu ponteng sekolah. Kalau ibu-bapa pelajar it mahu anak mereka untuk menjadi apa yang anaknya itu tidak suka, anaknya itu pun tidaklah mahu pergi ke sekolah (kerana) cita-citanya tidak akan tercapai.

Masalah ponteng sekolah di kalangan (dikalangan) pelajar mestilh dihentikan (diperhentikan). Guru-guru mestilah mengajar penuntut-penuntutnya supaya tidak menjadi orang yang tidak bersopan santun sejak mereka dalam sekolah rendah supaya menjadi orang yang berguna pada masa akan datang. Ibu-bapa mestilah memberi peluang anak-anak mereka untuk menjadi apa yang cita-cita mereka. Dengan itu ponteng sekolah boleh (direndah) dilurus perlahan-lahan.

*Gunakan kata hubung yang sesuai.

*Susun ayat dengan betul.

Tis this season to be jolly, fa la la la la la la la la. . . =D

Data Gathering.

Data gathering yesterday. I was amazed with the fact that I didn’t get exhausted because of this red energy drink, STING and ENERVON(more energy mas happy, more energy mas happy!). My mouth was tired tho coz I have to explain to our respondents in tagalog and I ran out of tagalog after that. I’ve learned that BALO is the tagalog word for WIDOWED. Plus I have to volumize my voice. But it was fun, made me ask this question:

What if my grandma’s still alive right now maybe i’ll be really different from who I am now? What if my grandma’s still alive right now I wonder how my life would’ve been? and more WHAT IF questions...

I grew up with my Lola(tagalog word for grandma), my mom said that if my Lola have to go somewhere, I’ll cry out loud so she can’t leave me. And she always buy me coke so that I’ll shut up from crying out loud. =)

on a lazy sunday I decided to visit you. =)

Sooo.....its been a long time since I blog here. Sorry for abandoning you and for actively updating my tumblr than you. But yeah, you'll always be the original blog I own. You've been with me since my grammar sucked and since I spelled your when I suppose to spell it you're. =) Now where should I start?! Hmmm well I'm now on my 2nd semester of 3rd year, I still suck at socializing and retaining information on my head when I study. I'm hoping that could change this semester. I'm sorry I mean I will change that this semester. My weekends are usually boring, cause its the only time I get to rest from the tiredness of school days so I get really lazy on a weekend to go out. I'm currently finishing my thesis so that I'll have a wonderful worry-less-from-thesis Christmas Break. I love to watch Glee, America's Next Top Model, Grey's Anatomy and Victorious these days. If I missed one episode I feel like i'm totally left out of the television world. I want Ann to win in ANTM Cycle 15 but sources revealed that Chelsea will won. That was the worst episode I've watched when Kurt left WHMS for Dalton Academy in GLEE. I miss sports especially Badminton but yeah everyone's busy so yea they don't want to play it with me.

Basically, I'm still Ria. Nothing changed tho. These are posts in my tumblr this morning:

"those morning when you want to go back to bed to sleep but when you close your eyes you can’t sleep. =|"

"T-SHIRT and SHORTS: the usual pambahay when you’re not going anywhere or on a lazy day ."